Online discussion on Friday 22, 2009

We are all so excited into doing the storybook and myself felt that I am so eager to transform our storybook into a real version. Just imagine a real co-writer/author which I have dreamed of so many times to put my imaginary into words then story. Most of all I really need to thank Alex for giving me this opportunity to take my 1st step into storywriting. Hopefully I will be able to continue and expand from here.

After everyone input of idea on what to put into this storybook, we detoured to our report which Alex wanted us to reflect on our group using this 6PSM pictures. I tell you I have a blank mind at 1st, even X10 with alots of experience in this sector keep on saying, headache-headache. However, with 'Tai Kai Chei' (Pris) on board everything can, she took us round the maze one-by-one. Without feeling dissapointed everytime she asked why no response from me and in her she knew that I did not get it, but she keep on going, until POP there it is - in front of me. One by one it falls into place, then I keep on pouring out my reflection on the 6PSM pictures.

Picture 1 - The Lady
Why is the water so milky and dirty, what is underneath there, something harmful ? Anything anytime danger is going to jump up at me? Better don't go near...

I have already get more of the learning from the CPPD'09 modules. Armed with these resources, I will need to use these on the children. Can I do it, is the way clear for me to walk? The fear is still in me whether will it be successful, will I able to juggle with my busy schedule, my job, my family, my center and etc. To be able to recognize; "What will be the worst thing if it happen?" Be able and ready to face the worst thing that will happen. Be courageous to take this up. I know there are a lot of "rescuers" and they will not let me drown. I will stay focus and positive.

Picture 2 - The Mountain
The Mountain is so huge and I am so small, if I am to climb up can I manage to go up. It is so beautiful from here. How to make it. Fear of whether can reach to the other side and up the top.

Firstly I need to cross this wide river, upon reaching the shore I will make small steps to the foot of the mountain and find the trail that others have taken. I will use the trail provide and make small steps one by one, climb slowly toward the top. Reflects on my mission to 'heal the children' even it will take many many years but I will be patience and positive and no rush job.

Picture 3 - The Witch
Can the witch be the uncontrolled environment that hinder me from taking the 1st step.
The witch will be saying, that "Hey, why wake up the shadow, you can go on without it. It has been so for so long, why want to disturb the schedule." I need to stop the witch, that is my fear, acknowledge it and be able to accept my small progress through out the course.

Picture 4 - The Waterfall
Here is so peaceful, the water is so clear compared to the lake. Bright flowers everywhere, I feel so calm, relax and in peace, the sound of water is so pleasing.
Can it be the sweet success that I looking for? Must be with bright and colourful future.

Picture 5 - The Unicorn
Unicorn, my savior, my hero, my prince, save me and my day. Brings me joy, peace and love.

Can it be my SET MEMBERS who disguised as unicorns be my savior, my hero - lead, save and rescue me. And will always be there for me.

Picture 6 - Gaia
Why is the girl not smiling? Even though everything is so colorful, she seem not to be happy where everything is at peaceful, why? Is the duty of holding the globe too heavy?

The duty of 'Healing the children' will be very heavy but the action is worthwhile, in the end I know I help the children, and if I heal 1 child when he/she grow-up and he/she is able to follow my foot step in heal others and in the end the world will be a better place to live in.

It takes deep courage to face my shadow, it will not be small feat to integrate it. I do not know how difficult the process can be or how I feel down the road, but inorder to get the best part of me I need to do it.

Even my 'home-minister' always commented "You have everything deep inside you but how to lure it out it always make me so helpless, sometimes you are too humble and downgraded yourself." Maybe this is the moment and time to break the gate.